learning curve

sometimes i wonder if i could make it in the real world, where it matters.
this current issue, i dont think i handled it well..
well perhaps its not in our scope to do it, or perhaps i am just chao keng. misunderstandings? perhaps again.. i felt a need to say no.

so many things that i need to learn.

first things first, i need to manage my time more efficiently and to take things more lightly. i am quite sick of having to worry if need more quotations, whether the designs are ok, can make it on time? whether the workload will be too heavy for the rest?

"I shall never fail my fellow comrades by shirking any duty or training,
but will always keep myself mentally and physically fit and shoulder my full
share of the task, whatever it may be."

and whether i did my job properly?